TRUE and DEEP!

I have a true story for you.... Something that has me a bit emotional and almost to tears yesterday when I was on my way to the doctor..... (oh I have been home sick for the last 4 days with a major sinus infection).

Here goes:

I am a visual person, there are some things in life that catch my eye, but nothing like this man. He has caught my eye and my attention and I really don't know why....

I was on my way to work one morning when I noticed this tall homeless man wearing a long black trench coat taking a walk talking to himself. My heart brakes when I see people in that situation. I always want to stop to try and help, but at the same time don't want to offend and I really don't know if they would even want my help anyways.

When I see people in this kind of situation it makes me think gosh Angie YOU ARE SO FREAKIN LUCKY... YOU have no worries.

I of course kept on my way to work that morning.... A few days later I saw him again this time it was cold and pouring rain and I saw a talk dark trench coat standing there as I got closer it was him again.

GOSH I thought what can I do.... All I did was kept driving and prayed for GOD to help him.

A few weeks later on one of my days off heading a totally different way not my same usual work route who do I see walking in the opposite direction, yes the same man. Now this is not close to my usual route. Again very thought provoking and honestly it makes me want to cry and ask why do I see this man all the time... Does anyone else out there see him. Why do I run into him and why does he catch my eye. Do I need to pray for him.... what do I need to do for him. What is GOD trying to tell me.... Why are our paths crossing at different times and in different places.

It has been a while since I had seen him, I would say at least a month. On my way yesterday to the doc, because I can't handle this virus I caught, I gave myself enough time to get there on time. In order to get to my doc's office I have to cross the train tracks and guess what was there yes TRAIN STOPPED COPS directing traffic... What do I do. Should I cancel. I can't cancel I feel like crap. I have to get there. So I turn and start driving to the right past downtown Main Street Wheaton, keep on going Angie... Well this train was blocking all the openings. Tons of cars trying to get south of the tracks.

I decided to call the doc tell them I was going to be late.
Turned my car around started going back the way I came from. I thought let me go to Glen Ellyn (next town over) and let me try to see if the train is stopped all the way there...
Here I go anxious and upset feeling horrible because I was feeling horrible and also I HATE TO BE LATE.... ONE OF MY PET PEEVES...... As I am getting closer to the first opening, I can see that the train is not blocking that opening YES, well wait a minute.... Angie, look at all that traffic.
Nothing I can do now, but wait... already called the doc to let them know I was going to be late.
So I took a deep breath and just waited till my turn came up to cross the train tracks.

So finally as I was crossing the tracks and now on the other side, cops were slowing everyone down, oh there that's another stop sign.... wait who is it that I see.... no, it can't be.... yes it was him - the same man.... tall, slender, black trench coat, winter hat, long beard...... it's him. I swear I wanted to cry like a baby, I actually did....

Who is this man and why do our paths cross. Did GOD plan this. Did he make me sick so I can be home and then have to go to the doc. Did GOD make the train disabled so that when I was on my way to the doctor instead of me getting to the doc on time going down the same route, did he plan this so that my route would be changed and our paths would cross at the same intersection. If the train would not have been disabled, I would have been on time and never would have taken the whole re route.

I talked to my cousin and asked her what do I need to do. Her answer was - Angie maybe he is put in your path so that you can see that your problems are not as bad as others.

I honestly don't understand and every time I think of what happened yesterday it makes me upset. Why is the UNIVERSE crossing our paths. Why is he in my life even though I am sure he never sees me, I CLEARLY SEE HIM. Is it my guardian Angel.... IS IT GOD? Is it life showing me that all the doubts I have are nothing compared to what he is going through. I prayed last night to have GOD show me what I need to do. I honestly have been away from my RELIGION for a long time. I believe in GOD and used to be very religious all my life. I have strayed from GOD. My husband does not believe and it was hard to find a good Catholic church in MO that I felt comfortable in. It's hard going to church alone when you see other families together.... and here you are married and even that you don't have in common...

So this is not just a story it's a true story that I wanted to share with you. Don't know what this means and hopefully GOD will show me soon what it is I have to do....

I finally got to the doc, Thank GOD that I had a very caring nurse, as I sat there with my blood pressure way up I started to cry... I apologized for being late... she thought I was crying because I was late... no I was crying because of him.....