Thursday, September 24, 2009

remember the other day when I took off and went for a long walk well this is one of the big reasons why.

i went looking for acorns and mini pine cones to decorate with. they are so cute and you can easily decorate with them either by adding them all over your table or putting them under glass.

Monday, September 21, 2009

thanks so much for your wonderful comments. I wrote the previous post because I just wanted you to know that you are not alone. there is always someone in this world of ours that struggles more then you or I.

there are people that struggle with OCD, Anorexia, ANXIETY (I fall in that catergory) and have much more to deal with then I.

I think if we take a deep breath and take one day at a time we might be able to get through it.

peace to you and have a wonderful week.

just ME

Saturday, September 19, 2009

In my own skin

okay so here goes, this is always on my mind and it's about time I come out and share this....

I decided to take a few pics, SELF portraits...

am I happy in my own skin? sometimes. I am not a thin girl and never have been. I guess you can call me a big boned girl.

I have struggled with my weight for many years, gain loose gain.... it's a see saw game.... this is year has been the gain year. stress, the move to Illinois, boredom, struggles with my own thoughts.

I will be honest I am a good eater, not pickey at all. love the carbs! so the reason why I took these pics is that at 40 it's time to either start digging myself for who I am or start being a bit healthier.

I am so tired of feeling bad about my weight.

so here I am all of me.... yes in BLACK of course, not because it hides my love handles, BLACK because it's also one of my favorite colors....

I am not saying that there will be no more eating, of course not I love a good breakfast, a good meal, my mother's cooking you know what I mean. I just wanted to share with you that I am who I am, chunky, big boned, whatever you want to call me..... I am who I am.


deep breath.......

well I took a well deserved day off this past week. Mondays are the best for me as that is the start of the week and who wouldn't enjoy the start of the week with a day off.

off I went to one of my favorite places the Mortom Arboretum. I swear this place is like Heaven to me. I can loose myself in this place. love taking a deep breath while I am walking around and just taking in the fresh air. loosing myself in here - would they ever find me?

i did bring a bag with me that I filled with acorns and a few pine cones. i have always been a nature lover, but never knew how much until now. yes, I would be one of those that would throw myself in front of a tree if I saw them cutting it down.

there are two places thatI love going to when I am on total overload:

1: A quiet empty church
2: this beautiful retreat

I hope you enjoy this pics. look at the cool orange mushrooms that I found under a tree. the color is amazing.

gosh my heart goes pitter patter!

Monday, September 7, 2009

i hope you had a wonderful labor day weekend.

gosh we did so much, spending time with friends and family. getting up early this morning to do some yard work and start putting out some fall decor.

look at this little treasure that I found in my back yard. wonderful!

acorns + fallen leaves + cool breezy nights =


i love fall, especially when you go out in the evening and you can smell someone's fire place burning.

lovely smell......

so are you getting ready for fall....

do tell.