RANDOM

so yes even on my days off I am up early getting the boys ready for school. The only thing I do for the oldest is make his lunch and sometimes make him toast with jelly and his favorite milk.... that's easy hugh.. and actually the youngest is also very self sufficient as well...

well I am off to the antique show today been checking the weather and it looks like it might be cold but that is okay because I am excited to get there this morning.

so here are a few random pics I took of my birthday meal with my date.... he had the Salmon and I had the Tilapia and we both had a nice somewhat healthy dinner except for maybe the soup.... now don't get toooo hungry.

Cameras are ready.... drop off the kiddies and off to the show.... stay tuned.

dont forget starts tomorrow

all I have to say tonight is what a wonderful day we all had here in Chicago today... the weather was amazingly beautiful....

the sun was shining oh so brightly...

tomorrow is the day - good bye 41

hello 42.... hope you bring me a blessed year!

Chicago Field Museum

so during Spring break we did go visit the Field Museum... I had not been there in years and my two boys had been there maybe a few years back and I am sure they did not remember what they saw.... so here are a few pics that I took of some of my favorite exhibits at he museum...

so in a few days I will turn 42.... 42? what? where has time gone... me 42... yikes! I just wanted to thank my good friends in MO - Don, Donna and Mary for the wonderful book they sent me on orchids... two Regina Spektor cds from Don since he knows I love music and loved the card guys ( SCREWITOL )... very funny have it at my desk at work. so here is a pic of one of my yellow orchids in bloom. I got this plant at Hauserman in Lombard and the other pic is just a pic of one of my favorite spots in my pad.... peaceful.. wish I could sit down long enough to enjoy the chair... maybe one day. so I decided to take off this coming Monday to just hang out and next Friday the 15th I took off because I do plan on attending the Antique Fair at the botanical gardens in Northbrook...got my ticket.. heard it's expensive that's okay I am just going to go see the eye candy that they are going to have..... well gotta run... washing jeans for my two boys and then off to work tomorrow.. have the late shift 10:30 to 7 yay for me.... (being sarcastic) peace and I will see ya soon...

The Cars - Just What I Needed - The Midnight Special 1978

I don't mind you coming here and wastin all my time! Cause when youre standing oh so near I kind of loose my mind...... I don't mind you hanging out and talking in your sleep It doesn't matter where youve been AS LONG AS IT WAS DEEP- YEAH! (just like me I suppose) Love me a rocker bad boy.....especailly with dreamy eyes....oh and he is wearing black leather pants.... if there is one thing I regret is that I never owned a pair myself...

so I went to see my counselor today and before I left I stated I thought now that I am in my 40s everything in my life should be set or at least the discovery of self should of been done by now. She stated that she believes we never stop discovering who we are....

I told her that I honestly feel that ever since I moved back and turned 40 something happened to me... sometimes I feel like I am becoming someone else or sometimes I feel like I am trying to find myself. In my mind, like I stated before that should of been done back in my 20s and maybe 30s but not at this point in my life.

She then stated maybe I am discovering that at this point in my life I am standing up for who I truly am.. what I believe in and what I like...

okay that kind of made sense... maybe I am not having an identity crisis maybe finally I am learning how to be ME.

Maybe I am finally accepting who I am and I am just trying to show others my true self...

ahhhhh an awakening - all along I was thinking I was going through some sort of mid life crisis... maybe finally I am really digging who I am and what I stand for... even though others might not like the person I have become it's time that they accept it or they just need to move on.... wow did that come out of me......