so I am up way early supposed to be getting ready for a soccer tournament in Rockford and also in Elgin all day today and tomorrow if it doesn't rain.

and then off to my cousins 40th b-day party in the city... mingling with a few old friends and cousins... hope it's fun and I am not too pooped out after all the running around I will do today.

okay ya'll hope you all enjoy a nice weekend in whatever you are doing. gotta run it's 6:00 a.m. on the dot and I have not jumped into the shower yet... gotta leave at 7... ciao

so here are a few more things I was lucky enough to pick up.

the pillow on my chair was just the pillow case I purchased. Of course all is brought home and washed in hot water with soap.

also the pink plate that you really can't see with the melon on it. I think I got that for 1.20.

the strawberry picture was just thrown in cause the picture came out so good... don't they look yummy.

okay gotta run my parents came by to see me.... and yes all this fruit was waiting just for them.

bonjour -

so this morning since I am boringly doing chores, while waiting for the washing machine to finish I like to set up props and practice my photography.

everything in this pic was bought at my favorite thrift I had wrote about before.

large white platter I think was around 1.20, the beautiful flowered bowl don't remember less then 3 or 4 and all the vintage linen I think was around 4.00 as well.....

I also love going cause I can always convince my mother to go with me and I get to spend time with her.

sooooo okay gotta run will be back soon to post more pics, my son just came home with his first snake.. a normal ball python ( whatever that really means) I am afraid to ask what a non normal ball python is. I gave in, it was his 14th birthday on the 4th... so running upstairs to make sure it's in it's cage and not roaming around the house..

it's getting later and later and I cannot sleep.... toooo much diet coke... not really a good thing to drink when a person deals with anxiety... should of picked water instead.

so it's been a while since I have shared any of my crazy feelings.

I guess counseling and the medication have taken a bit of the edge off.

at least that is how I feel sometimes. I guess some stuff is better left behind in a small room under lock and key - dont you think?

I recently met this lady which for some strange reason the connection was made, a connection that came out of no where. she is so sweet always calls me georgeous. I truly don't think of myself that way but I go along with her cause honestly I don't know what else to say. She comes sometimes to my desk and gives me a big old hug like if we have been the best of friends for years... sweet lady. I saw her crying the other day not really knowing why. I did not want to pry. I got the nerve to ask her to lunch not to talk about her issues, but to let her know that she is not alone in her pain. We all have issues and things we like to hide or that we can't deal with. GOD knows I have mine and have dealt with them for so many years... have I let them go yet? NO not at all, maybe I am trying to let them go away slowly. not used to not have issues. they become a big part of you.

it's very hard to forgive and forget. my counselor says by forgiving it's not that you are saying that what they did was right it's a way of letting go. NOT SURE if I will ever be able to let go or if I will ever truly forgive. Maybe I am not ready to do so...

so somtime this week I will join this lady for a quick bit to eat, wish me luck. not sure if I will be able to help her or give her good advice. I just want her to know that someone does care even though at this point we are truly strangers.... sometimes strangers are better friends to be honest.

I am so bummed to find out that one of my favorite singers has lost her life at such an early age of 27.

So talented and now she is gone.

RIP AMY - may your soul now be free and maybe you be at peace.....

Carnavale - Cousin Adrian turns 40

had a great time last night celebrating my cousin's 40th

b-day. I grew up with him and consider him my favorite boy cousin.

so my cousin Yoli made the plans and we all showed up.

fun was had by all especially myself with that mint coconut mojito that I had... by the way I am not a big drinker so before the food came I was feeling very good and had a few laughs sitting next to Gary... sorry Gary did not get your pic.

so Cousin Adrian even though the years have passed and our lives have taken different directions you still are close to my heart and I was glad that I made it to your 40th b-day dinner. (sorry for my perv jokes)

hanging out last Friday with my youngest was fun.... went to the pool and had a small breakfast at McDs.

love their yogurt parfait with the crunchy granola bits they give you on the side.

got to see my mom and dad and yes I did get to go to the thrift with my mom and will show you soon what I got. love that store if I lived closer I swear I would sneak there every day...

glad I am off today on my way to the mall with my two boys... just to hang and then tomorrow going to the waterpark with my cousin and our kids to go have some water fun.... she says all she likes doing is the lazy river - we will see.... now I have to go find a bathing suit... not tooooo thrilled about that.... have never really liked being in a bathing suit.... hope I don't run into anyone I know...