Last month - Sandwich Antique Market

last month my cousin, niece, Gary and I attended the Sandwich antique market. We were actually headed to the Bloomington flea, but did a detour since Gary lives close to Sandwich, IL.

We had a great time with a few beers at the end and a nice lunch.

I took this photo last week and it just amazes me. the beauty of this flower and then just all the little levels/layers the inner part of this flower has.

all I have to say is WOW!

another weekend is upon us. I have to admit that I was so ready for the weekend to start. not sure what I am up to, but of course where ever I go my camera will come with.

so enjoy your weekend and see ya soon.

this lovely is from my parent's yard.

had a nice day off today spent it all day with my mother.

finally cut some of my hair off as it was very long and needed a little taming.... boring as I like wearing my hair kind of wild, but I guess it was time.

so off to work tomorrow thank the LORD that it will be a three day week.. sweet.

pics of my favorite stuff - purchased last month at Kane

I love the flea especially the Kane County flea.... I can be there all day, yes lots of people but as long as it's in the open air I am fine. Here are a few of my purchases that I did last month.


I bet you didn't know that my favorite color is GREEN.
So that is why I bought this green sign and I used to work in Oak lawn, IL for quite a while back in the day so that brings memories.

the flower pin I bought at the Country Living fair a few years back and has honestly always been my favorite pin so I will be wearing it again soon as I love wearing it in the fall.

I loved the image of the horse so that is why I bought the red one...

I am really wanting to go to the Country Living fair in September this year in OHIO...... I am going to see if I can make that possible. Hopefully it will happen...as long as I think positive thoughts right.... VISUALIZE MYSELF THERE..... I will start doing that...

How I celebrated the 4th..... My family....

so it was a success.... anxiety under control when I am with my family enjoying a peaceful day like today.











my eldest playing with smoke bombs and sparklers.








my brother's girlfriend and my nephew Derrick























my father in the gray and my sister in law's father in blue.


of course some good ole sweet corn.


my two brothers, Marco, Raul, sister in law Nancy and her father.


Again my middle brother and his wifey.


the three boys my youngest in black.

my mommie dearest.

my favorite beer nice and cold with some salt and lime.

meat, meat and more meat. as you can tell there are a lot of boys in the family.


coco the poochie, my brothers daughter... he loves that dog more then himself.

just wanted to share with you my favorite spot to sit at and relax..... I love darker, neutral colors, more relaxing I feel.

after a long day at work today got to my place and did some light cleaning and preparation as I will be spending my fourth with my parents on the south side.

I want to wish you all a wonderful FOURTH.

A BIG salute to all that are in the military..... because of them I am able to spend the day tomorrow with my family enjoying our day and our freedom.

BIG SALUTE to my younger brother in Las Vegas that served in the Navy for a few years.

Peace to you all......

See ya soon!

it's okay to feel broken sometimes

body form purchased at Kane County Flea....

Topic: Broken

I guess I am feeling a bit emotional tonight and I know after a good night sleep I will wake up in a better mood and honestly maybe regret this post.

BUT tonight my emotions are just wacky and I feel like getting this off my chest.

so tonight's word is BROKEN....

I have to admit this because this is what makes ME who I am. I think I have mentioned before that I suffer from anxiety. I did not start dealing with anxiety until a few years back where a major anxiety attack landed me in the hospital. it's not the greatest of feeling to feel anxious and to have to hide it from all that know me. it's a burden. it's the cross that I have to carry.

I like to talk about it on my blog just in case someone out there is dealing with this as well and I want them to know that they are not alone.

I thank God that I have not had a major attack in a while, but there are still consequences that I deal with everyday because of that major attack a couple of years back.

I am in fear everyday that it will occur again.
I can't handle crowds anymore like I used to and if I have to be in a crowd it has to be out in the open air.
People believe I am so happy and outgoing, but if they only knew sometimes the turmoil that goes on inside.

this is not an easy cross to carry. not at all.

sometimes I just feel so BROKEN, but you will not even know it cause all you will see is a smile on my face.

A friend of mine recently told me that I am so good at pretending cause when you ask me how I am I always say EVERYTHING is GREAT. YES, there are some great days especially when the sun is out that is why I try to spend as much time outdoors and enjoy it's feel as this brings peace to me and my mind.

I am not writing this for anyone to feel pity for me. It's just another post just like any other one on my blog. Maybe in a way writing about it helps me deal with it.

I hope that one day just like it came on it will go away. For now I pray to GOD to help me be anxious free.